| | I got fired for the first time in my life where I actually did nothing wrong. I know that I wasnt meant for fine dining because I just dont agree with people that pay 18 dollars for a hamburger while there are people right now that cant even pay their rent. Maybe they saw that in me, that I just hated the people that came into the restaurant. I like working in sports bars with people that work hard and just want to come in and have a beer after work. Im having such a hard time in Orlando. If you could of asked me at 18 what I would be like at 24 this would not be it. I would have pictured myself completely on my own, teaching, and happy. I still havent gotten my certification, all the jobs in Orlando are filled, and Im stuck looking for another serving job. I have enough savings to get me through the next couple of months without a job but I miss having fun and going out and dancing. I wish someone could get me out of my rut. At least Sammy has been here to cuddle with me all day. | comments: Leave a comment   |
| | Nightmares every night. I just want some normal sleep | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | We put a bid on a house today and I am super excited. I hope everything works out even though I dont want to get my hopes up. Its not a dream house but its a perfect starter condo with a yard and it needs work which means lots of fun for me. Keep your fingers crossed. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| this semester has been so hard. calc 2 is kicking my ass and now that i dont need it for my major i dont even care about passing it which is not like me at all. i have so many papers due and im never graduating. i wish i wouldnt have fucked around the first couple years and that i wouldnt have traveled during the summers and that i would have taken a full course load at least once.
work has been going good. not making as much money at quarterdeck but i like everyone i work with and its not awful. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| In Europe and America, there's a growing feeling of hysteria
Conditioned to respond to all the threats
In the rhetorical speeches of the Soviets
Mr. Krushchev said we will bury you
I don't subscribe to this point of view
It would be such an ignorant thing to do
If the Russian love their children too
How can I save my little boy from Oppenheimer's deadly toy
There is no monopoly of common sense
On either side of the political fence
We share the same biology
Regardless of ideology
Believe me when I say to you
I hope the Russians love their children too
There is no historical precedent
To put words in the mouth of the president
There's no such thing as a winnable war
It's a lie we don't believe anymore
Mr. Reagan says we will protect you
I don't subscribe to this point of view
Believe me when I say to you
I hope the Russians love their children too
We share the same biology
Regardless of ideology
What might save us me and you
Is that the Russians love their children too
sting-russians | | comments: Leave a comment |
| got an A- in my calculus class. im not used to grades that contain - and +, im actually kinda disappointed that i got that - but considering that most people didnt pass any of the tests or even the quizzes and waited til the last minute to make them up and im sure that i did better than 75% of the class. i should be excited.
got a decent schedule at work this week and next. ive been making pretty good money, not what im used to making there but since the manager took away my shifts i guess im pretty lucky to get the shifts i am getting.
gift wrapping is going good. kinda sad its almost over. i dont think they raised as much money this year as they have in the past but i feel good about it. its nice to do something good for other people instead of just always doing things for yourself especially at christmas time. ill defintely do it again next year.
i hope everyone that reads this has a good christmas and give me a call before school starts so we can hang out. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| i just got found on myspace by my best friend from high school (who is still my best friend)and i was looking through her friends and found everyone that i was friends with in high school that all moved away. its weird. i was friends with them but i was never really friends with them. i always wanted to be one of those people that everyone likes and wants to be friends with but have come to realize that will never be me. even at the wedding, i was surrounded by people that i know and have been around for years now but i know that im not friends with most of them. if me and kit were to break up, i would never hear from these people again. it makes me sad but at the same time i feel blessed that the people i am friends with are perfect and i kinda think that i would rather have my bestest friends than not have my bestest friends and have a big group of friends that dont care about me as much as my bestest friends do. i dont know if any of this makes sense. but it does to me and i guarantee that my bestest friends understand this.
i still kinda wish that i was like all those other girls that everyone wants to be friends with and dance with and hang out with. hopefully as i get older this will fade because im sick of wanting something that is not meant for me. | | comments: 6 comments or Leave a comment |
| | 3 weddings on the same day. everyone i know is at a wedding right now even if its not the one im at. its just kinda weird. kinda wish it was my wedding day too | | comments: 5 comments or Leave a comment |
| | my calculus test was the hardest test i have ever taken. supposedly he adds in calculus 2 into our curriculum. so hopefully next semester when i take calc 2 i will be ahead of everyone else. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | who wants to go to the mall/grocery store/restaurant this weekend and push my wheelchair for me? you must also be able to take pictures. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | voting today was so awful. since i live in a 55 and older community it was all old people compaining about waiting in line and standing in the rain and in their day voting was so much easier with regular paper and not the complicated computers. once i got inside and got to my machine i could hear the people next to me trying to figure out how to work theirs and asking what button to push. i didnt think it was that complicated but i am worried that there is no paper trail now and that if someone does hack the computers there is not way to prove how people really did vote. but who knows maybe the republicans set it up that way. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | i feel very relieved all of a sudden. i got suspended from quarterdeck for missing the monthly meeting. i do not believe that it was entirely my fault bc they did not post a notice like they do every month. but they are holding me responsible and im ok with that. ive decided that if i dont get my set schedule back next week then im going to walk in and tell them that im not comming back and all the things that make me mad about the company and let them know that im not a bad employee and that i try my hardest to make the customers happy and blah blah blah. i just want to say things that are going to make me feel better. i know it isnt going to effect them in any way but it would just be nice to get if off my back. next thing is for me to either wait for the new restaurant to open by my house or look for a good job bartending. i like the idea of the beefs by my house just bc they close early. any place i get a job bartending at is going to close late and i dont want anything getting in the way of work. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | i really wish school wasnt so time consuming. i want to be able to do the things i used to. i loved rock climbing and going to the beach on the weekends. i want to read more. i want to go out of town. i want to not sit at home and do papers. bcc was so easy, i never did anything and got good grades. for the first time i feel like im actually working. i guess its not a bad thing and i should be proud of myself. i need to stop whining. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | i want to go out this weekend. who wants to go dancing? i never get to go. someone take me. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | i havent left the house in two days. i missed calculus yesterday and i missed my field placement today. i just couldnt get myself out of bed. whats wrong with me. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| so i started reading electric kool aid acid test for the 15th time the other day. i dont know what it is about this book that i always put it down and start another. but this time i mean business. i really like it so i dont know what makes me put it down.
work last night kicked ass. i made $210 and i trained so not only did i do absolutely nothing the whole night but i got free food and she did my closing side work. love it. plus closing with bobby you get free beer and shots after the restaurant closes. stayed there til four and ow i slept my day away.
i did get a piece of glass in my finger which really hurt and i slammed my finger on the opposite hand in the door. so now the middle fingers on both my hands are bruised and it sucks. no one would take me to the hospital. | | comments: Leave a comment |
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